I found out via facebook out of all the places. I had suspected something had been going on so had been keeping an eye on her profile. She put they were in a relationship on there. My heart just broke but I still had hope (lol) that nothing had been going on. I confronted him and he confessed they had been seeing each other. I ran upstairs and collapsed. It was 2 days before my dad's funeral, I had a 2 month old with him and was suffering from PND.
He then looked me in the eye and said he wanted to be with her. This was nearly 6 months ago. I haven't been the same since. He packed his things and left whilst I was shaking on the bed, numb. He chased after her for a few weeks then came crawling back to me as she didn't want him after she found out about me. He's in bed now as I type this, I can't sleep as I still have nightmares from it. I have developed PTSD from it all. He slept with her in a hotel the day my dad died, I drove for 4 hours crying inconsolably and broke down in a hotel room as I didn't want to be at home on my own. Not even a text to see if I was ok.
I wrote everything down he's told me, a lot of it doesn't make sense. We argue frequently about it as I have it in my head he would do the same when something else better came along. I've developed an eating disorder and anxiety also. The way I look at myself has completely changed and my confidence has gone.
It's a hard road, no matter how much he's changed I can't forget everything.
[This message edited by hyperactivepineapple at 10:58 PM, Wednesday, October 1st]
